It’s always devastating to hear this kind of news. If I’ve learned anything from the past two years it is that you truly never know what is going on in someone’s life … even if it is masked behind pretty things and a well kept smile.
Kate Spade was and still is the staple for pretty, happy, and classic design. My heart is saddened to hear that someone who creates and designs such joyful products would be in a dark place in life enough to believe that this was the only escape from it.
Mental Illness is real. Period. And it lies to you constantly. And if you choose to listen to the lies long enough … it will convince you to believe that what it’s saying to you is true.
That you’re alone. That no one wants to be bothered with your problems. Don’t be the Debbie downer. Again. And again. Wow I guess this is just how you’re going to feel forever. I’m driving people away because I can’t just “be happy.” You can’t tell them “that” because then they’ll really think you’re crazy. And the lies keep piling and piling up until you think that there is only one way out.
SHINE YOUR LIGHT
Let’s light up that pit and expose the lie. Friend, you are not alone. I’ll light my candle first … I am currently walking into 3.5 years of trying and believing for our first precious child, 2 years of full on anxiety disorder with too many panic attacks to count. I (not so lovingly) refer to this season as “The Great Heaviness.”
TGH has affected my relationships and my business. I have seen days where if one more person told me “the joy of the Lord is my strength” I was going to scream. Days where panic attacks have left me mentality and physically debilitated so plans with friends and family had to be missed and appointments rescheduled.
I’ve also seen days so full of joy and peace right smack in the thick of it all. By the grace of God, I’m seeing more and more of the good days. But it wasn’t without having to ask for help and getting vulnerable. I have hope because although this is currently a part of my story, I know my story isn’t over. And my friend, yours isn’t either!
Let’s start the conversation. Light a candle.
If you have it all bottled in, find someone you trust to confide in. Keeping it in is believing the lie. If you don’t have someone to talk to, I’ll gladly lend an ear … just tell someone. You are so valued and loved.
“But me he caught — reached all the way from sky to sea; he pulled me out of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos, the void in which I was drowning. They hit me when I was down, but GOD stuck by me. He stood me up on a wide-open field; I stood there saved — surprised to be loved!” (2 Samuel 22:17-20, MSG)