Removing the Pressure
Over the past few weeks, in the quiet of my own home, in my marriage, and in my friendships, God has been tearing down lies I have believed for years and has been unloading, brick-by-brick, the unhealthy expectations I’ve been carrying. This blog post is my opportunity to wave my freedom banner in Christ. It all begins with a healthy, worshipful admission of all that I am not.
-- I am not perfect. I have never been and I never will be. But I AM is perfect and He is for me, loves me recklessly, and pursues me even in my imperfections.
-- I am not a theologian. I don’t have all the answers to life’s questions nor do I understand every mystery in the Bible. But I do love the Word with all my heart. I love Jesus from the very depths of my soul. This doesn’t mean that everything I write and say will be without error, for I am a mere human. But this does mean that my heart is to know Jesus and make Him known, and I trust that I AM will speak and write through me as He sees fit.
-- I am not the "next Beth Moore.” There have been women who have said this to me countless times and the enemy has used this to put me in bondage to what I “should” be. While I love Beth Moore and have learned from her walk with Jesus over the years (as many of you have!), I will never be her or anyone else. I am Gretchen Saffles, daughter of the King of kings, follower of Jesus Christ, and proclaimer of the hope of the Gospel.
-- I am not able to do all things. I can't say "yes" to everything, as much as I want to, because I only have a certain amount of hours in each day. But I AM has called me to do things that are impossible in my own strength, and I lean on Him everyday to accomplish the tasks set before me, no matter how small they may be.
-- I am not available to everyone at all times. I’ve always been a people-pleaser, mainly because I love people and I love hearing their stories and walking with them on their journeys. However, this struggle has stolen a lot of joy from my life lately. As a 28-year old young wife and mama leading a growing online women’s ministry, I’ve learned the hard way that I cannot be all things to all people. I cannot answer every single question and message because I have limited hours to work. I cannot speak to every person’s situation in what I share. I cannot produce enough to satisfy the masses, but I can be faithful right where I am and with who God puts me with, and that begins with my family and friends.
-- I am not without struggle, trial, or doubt. I wrestle with Scripture. I ask God tough questions when I spend time with Him. I have really bad days at times. But God always meets me there in my need. He is I AM who is always with me and He never changes. This ministry is simply the overflow of my walk with Him through the highs and lows of this journey called life. I’m right there with you in the battle and the thick of battle, friends.